This time we’ll take it slow…
↳Francis’ Sword-Fight Outfit 1.03
The cruelest thing is to have feelings for someone who is miles away from you and what’s even crueler is when you will always have feelings for that person.
I said what I had to say and it hurt so much but I said everything, I put it all out on the table and he took it. He agreed, I mean how could he not when he’s the one who initiated it and I didn’t learn and I should’ve stopped it. But I didn’t.
But then he had to bring up what he did and it turns out I was being too slow to realize he was being sarcastic and that he was (I think, according to everyone’s assumptions) trying to say that he isn’t happy with his girlfriend.
But I didn’t realize it, I was too wrapped up in my emotions and I was hurt that I took it as him rubbing it in my face that he’s oh so happy. But turns out I’m wrong. And it’s too late because I said goodbye. Goodbye forever.
But I don’t understand him, why bring that up? Why would I care? He knew he had me but decided to reject it. Losing his one opportunity so why would I care? You’re not happy with her? Well break up? But don’t think that you can run to me, no matter how deep those feelings are that we both have for eachother I can’t trust him.
I felt legitimate hurt this weekend with this surprise and I’m left confused. But I’m also left with that nagging feeling of knowing the answer I keep telling him we don’t have.
I know how to make ourselves stop acting like how we do when we’re around eachother. I know even though I tell him I don’t and the answer is very simple: we have to give ourselves a chance, we have to let ourselves officially belong to eachother and see how things go because if we don’t just try it out we’re never going to get over it. It’s a simple answer but we can’t. Those miles between us keep us from it and for the most part they’re good because they keep us from eachother until we see eachother and you tell me” I’m glad I saw you. To be honest I missed you,gorgeous”
Sometimes I don’t even think of my feelings for you I’m just so annoyed with the fact that I know if we just try it out I can finally get rid of this recurring problem.